I have been sad this morning. I just finished watching the Today Show and all of the thousands of mourning people who lost someone dear to them 5 years ago today.
I was a pregnant mother of an almost 2 year old 5 years ago. I was getting ready for Ladies Class at church when I decided to turn on the Today Show. Local news had cut in and said that a plane had crashed into the North Tower of the WTC. At the time, many thought it was a small commuter plane. Maybe there was fog and it accidentally rammed into the building? Then when the second plane hit, I naiively thought, maybe the plane went to see the damage of the first building being hit and accidentally hit the other building. I just couldn't believe that any one would deliberately kill so many. As the morning unfolded, there was so much fear that there were more planes in the air. Would one try to hit the Texas White House so close to my own?
In the days and weeks to come, I was glued to the TV. Matthew was taking long naps at the time, and I spent my days watching people mourn the loss of their husbands, wives, sons, daughters, fathers, mothers. I felt a strong sympathy for Lisa Beamer as she and I were both pregnant. She had two boys just like I was about to have. What would I do if suddenly Bryon walked out the door never to return?
I remember travelling to Arkansas 10 days later to visit Lauren seeing more flags than I had ever seen before in front of so many homes and businesses. What kind of world would I bring Matthew and Thomas up in? Would they be safe? Would we be hit again soon?
I wonder if President Clinton, up to his eyeballs in controversy with Monica Lewinsky, regrets not killing Osama Bin Laden when he had the chance. I wonder if President Bush regrets any of his decisions. I wonder if America is forgetting the patriotism felt so strongly 5 years ago. I wonder if it pleases the enemy to see our country so divided. I wonder.
Five years later, I can't watch the coverage all day. I have 3 kids now and all three require that my time not be spent watching TV remembering the dead, but living life.
Had a thought.
17 hours ago
3 comments:
It was such an ominous day that kept unfolding. I was VERY pregnant with my first child and was rocked by it all. I, too, cannot imagine what those wives, husbands, children, parents, everyone there, felt. Thank you for helping us remember.
It has been a very depressing day. I think it's good that we're still saddened by it though. I want to feel that horrible sadness every year so I don't forget. I do wonder if we've forgotten that sense of patriotism five years later. Thanks for posting about it to help us reflect and remember.
So true. Being a mom now I can totally see how you have to be strong for your child(ren) and not show the fear and chaos, but rather that we have a loving God that takes care of us even in the midst of craziness. Thanks for sharing.
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