For almost 10 years, I have been a stay at home mom, and except for a few hours a week at MDO, I had a constant companion right at my heels. This was a blessed, wonderful, difficult, exciting, loud, fun, exhausting, sweet time in my life.
I can't believe it's over.
There were days when I had two in diapers, one dirty, one crying, one into mischief that I thought would last forever. Sweet days where we all stayed in our pjs for most of the day. Most of our activities were over by 2 o'clock in the afternoon. Sounds of Dora the Explorer, Bob the Builder, Oswald, Little Bill, Charlie and Lola, and Maggie and the Ferocious Beast came from the TV. Play dates, long phone conversations with friends, Ladies Class, and scrapbook classes were my sanity breaks. I loved holding all of my babies right when they woke up, so warm and still.
I can't believe it's over.
I recently went into a restaurant, and several girls, who were obviously younger than me, with a baby on each hip and wrestling with a toddler stood near my table. The women were comparing birth stories like I loved to do with my friends. When did my conversations turn from birth stories to teacher stories? It occurred to me that I would no longer fit in with these conversations. Mine revolve around sports, PTA, teachers, and homework.
I can't believe it's over.
That being said, I must say that I am enjoying the positives to this life change. After the insanity of getting the kids out the door, I relish being in my deafeningly quiet house with a book and a cup of coffee. This has become an extremely important part of the day. I read for pleasure, I pray, I read my bible, I quiet my mind. I have really had very little time these past few years to quiet my mind. I feel very peaceful starting the day each day.
I am also working a ton right now. Almost every day, I am seeing patients and doing paperwork. Not having to rush back to pick up Mary Beth from MDO has been a blessing. I am so swamped at work, that I don't know how I would have done it a year ago. I love my job, and I feel like I am making a difference in people's lives.
I have taken on a huge PTA role this year that is also keeping my on my toes. I love being involved with the kids' school, getting to know their teachers and being with my PTA buds.
I am not quite used to the craziness that after school brings. I am anxious every day to spend one on one time with each child, but craziness ensues as I am asking them about their day, signing paperwork, going over homework, making sure that the boys have their piano practiced, books read, and dressed for their practices that evening. Wow. Three thirty to five thirty is insane. The noise level goes from zero to sixty and I often feel like a paper mill exploded in my house as the kids enter. Still working to find a better system!
I am enjoying going to Ladies Bible Class again, and feel so refreshed after listening to Anne Graham Lotz at the Just Give Me Jesus revival this weekend. It was a wonderful experience, and I am excited to spend more time reading my bible and praying.
I will always cherish my sweet memories having little ones at my feet. What an incredible experience! But, I am loving my time with my three between diapers and puberty! They are at wonderful ages right now. I just love the elementary school years. In a few years, I might be writing another post on how I can't believe the elementary school years are over. Until then, I will savor each day.